The battle rages within! Those of you that read my humble blog, know I hate Mondays . . . passionately!
I understand why, but cannot change the way I feel. I go from feeling ALIVE in my world to feeling like a reject in "The Others" world, I just . . . don't fit in! I try, I really do! Am I the only man left here on Earth that the ALIENS have not replaced with a pod under the bed! You know in that movie replacing us, with an almost us, more controllable. As in a clone, re-cloned so many times that what they once was, does not reside in them, anymore? Damn it! I'm ready, please ease the burden, I choose to not be me anymore! I'm killing myself a frustrated individual that's so fucking tired of the, the, the idiots-and-crazies that make everyday . . . be . . . everyday. My life vitals are dwindling, being taken away, I cannot stop the insanity I see, the irritability I feel, from killing me!
The dilemma is, the life is being drained as I resist and try to rationalize the impossible!
OH SHITE! I THINK I'LL SAY GOODNIGHT ON THAT LAST THOUGHT AND TRY TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ANOTHER DAY!
((( It just flat pisses me off that I can't place coherently what I feel!!! Seems my mind goes, !@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()------------fucked-UP! )))
I'M GOING TO POST ANOTHER ONE AT THE SAME TIME THAT GOES ALONG WITH THIS "WHAT I GONNA DO?" BELOW THIS ONE.
I think you need to get away to some tropical paradise and just sit and watch the waves come and go . If I was a rich woman I would send you and your lady on a nice relaxing trip. But since I am not, I don't know what to tell you to do because the world is crazy as hell anymore and it will drive you mad trying to deal with it sometimes.
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