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Monday, March 28, 2016

I unleash my super hero " ( Joe Pesky )

Okay! okay! okay . . .   ( I cannot keep my favorite inner voice quiet. )

Here is Joe Pesky

"This dipstick of a brain I live in, tries to write nice, funny, stuff. No one cares about nice stuff anymore, just watch the fricking news, anytime of the day or night! I'm what the numbskull's brain  calls a misfit, the brain man is quite a . . . what do you call someone who has many different characters living inside their mind? skitzo, psychotic. whatever the crap. There was this book Sybil, remember, she had sixteen personalities inside her. Damn . .  talk about possessed! It used to be called (Multiple Personality Disorder.) Today they call it D.I.D. (Dissociative Identity Disorder.) Disorders this, disorders that! There's more Disorders than these Shrinks can identify. Used to just be called crazy,  off their rocker, mentally ill, they'd put all the affected ones in a sanitariums for the insane and threw the key away! Now they let 'em all out for us partially sane ones. What is the politically correct terminology today, Challenged, yeah that's it Challenged. Prescribe them nutsos new drugs, that'll bring them halfway to normal. They use to experiment with drugs, and shock their asses back to not quite crazy enough to be locked up, but well enough to be out here in society."

"Okay! okay! okay . . . you think I Joe Pesky be screwing with your head don't you? Why can't I screw with your head? Every day the Brain Negatory Commission of the World screws your brain up, and you don't even know it! This international agency is funded by most countries, for sure, would I lie to you? We're being bombarded by so much insanity that you'd swear, the inmates are running the asylum! Guess what they are! Do you think that Lawyers which I do believe make up the majority of Politicians. What other college degreed ones could read documents and screw the world up so much? It has taken time to get us in the shape we're in. They'll sue anyone who has money for anything."

Nomophobia!

I'm having a rough time with this writing thing once more. A few years ago I could pop something out almost daily, those were the good old days. My older post receive many hits, and that plum tickles my innards. Those old posts were a lot of fun to put to paper, oops I mean computer.

Everything seems to boil down to politics and religion, or leads back there as I write. Surely to God there's other things to write about in my old age.

Maybe there's a reason for that as we're affected so much with both!

I'm going to think for a minute or so and see if I actually learned anything over the weekend. I'm going to put you on hold, please play your favorite song in your mind for one minute.

Minute is up, did you enjoy your song? Nothing popped into my head. I don't do much anymore or wander out into the wilds of people.

I have read several articles recently about cell phone addiction. According to these articles stating facts about usage just blew me away. Apparently young adults are addicted like drug users. In my limited life outside in the too real world for me, say waiting in the waiting room at my Doctor, it is abundantly clear people of all ages are addicted. I can live with that if their wiling to pay the prices of these toys . . . it's their money. The can't wait until later and texting while driving is abominable. This shows the can't wait a minute, have to right now, no matter what the cost, including their lives. All common sense has left the mind. One or at least this one has to wonder how can anything coming across or sending through this contraption/toy/computer/phone whatever??? One of the articles used the word pacifier and that people can't imagine being without it. It sends shivers through their body thinking about losing or going without it. Comparing it to an addiction that I know is real because I see it.

Curiosity got the best of me so I looked it up.

NOMOPHOBIA-"no mobile-phone-phobia," the fear of being without your cell phone. Can you believe that?

Survey said, two-thirds in the United Kingdom experience nomophobia. Wow! Is all I can think of!

It increases to 77% for young people 18 to 27.   DAMN!

In the U. S. 75% of all teens text, sending an average of 60-100 text per day.

These few facts tell us something, don't it!

Could there be a connection to education going south. Apparently so if the amount of time spent studying for school was as great or as important as the cell phone certainly our education as a nation would be higher than 30 out of the thirty countries in a study.

Well enough said about such a modern wonder. It makes me wonder where we'll go from here? Are we on a path to destroying what brain we have left or just another way of control?

Monday, March 21, 2016

Churning, blooming, and other stuff!

It's late afternoon and whow-wee, me mind is surely a churning, gonna churn me up some new synapses or my mind will just turn to butter! Ha, ha, ha, damn . . . I be in a good mood today, ainna us-ta  that. I'm not gonna explain no more 'bout how I write, ya see I love to have fun with ya, and I'm a gonna. My brain be firing so much I had to put me hat and my hooded sweatshirt on to hold it in! Aww, come on, got to give me a grin for that!

Me and Rambo rode over to Menards to pick up a few things, seen some trees a blooming and some blooming first flowers of the season. I like that word blooming, I have heard blooming as in he's a blooming idiot. I really like that!

Lets dissect that sentence a wee bit more. If someone is an idiot, that's pretty much self explanatory, add a blooming idiot. What does that add to the equation. If blooming means like a bud opening up and a flower blooms, that seems right special, spectacular, beautiful! Man oh man! I just love to see the first blooming trees of spring!!!

Oh my! how can a blooming idiot correlate to what I just described. I be in a heap oh shite now!

Bloom . . . bloom . . . bloom . . . excuussee me I be a thinkin'! and that's not easy for an old man like me!

If I was to say, I met some blooming idiots today, would you understand that?

IDIOT, a stupid person.
An utterly foolish or senseless person.

I look around and found a heap on this subject and one just pissed me off!

GREEK somethin' or the other, blah, blah, blah!! ("person lacking professional skill", "a private citizen", "individual"."

Welll . . . shish-ka-bobby, somehow this here private citizen, be perturbed!

Lacking PROFESSIONAL skill! The private citizen one, let's compare to the highly skilled, professional, maybe lawyers that become professional you know "Politicians"!

Their so professional, they never seem to answer the question, they beat around the bush and such, you know! We private citizens can answer with simple yes or no.

I'm so riled up I can no longer go down the path I began this post with. "WE THE PEOPLE" are thought of as just a bunch of "lackeys" we know nothing we're just here to serve, slaves to the masters!

BEWARE "WE THE PEOPLE" are getting ourselves riled up! Yes we are! Uh- huh! I am one of many that feels somethin' a blowin' in the wind! The moral majority or overlooked minority to be, are tired you see. Wee be fed up, where is our rights? Everybody else demanding their rights, when some have no rights, their not citizens of the country!

You have minorities of all types, demanding! You out there know what I'm getting at! Yes you do! Those of us who are citizens, who have been here for a long time. Mexico is killing our way of life with drugs and illegals. Way too many other nations, are trying to make us into their own private
playground why did they come here for they should of stayed in their own country.

Ones different in every which way imaginable, demand their rights!     

WE ARE THE WORLD AT THIS TIME IN THIS ONCE, GREAT NATION.

Is that good or bad? Sad to say if our government would of been working for its citizens it would still be a great place. Sadly the governing bodies have left the buildings. The ELITES have sold us "The Citizens" out a long time ago! Washington, Wall Street, are still are still picking at the carcass, of a once great nation.

The citizens of this country are ripe and ready. Many actions of the last few years is forewarning of what will be. One man is bringing it to the attention right now, showing cracks in the foundation. The Elites of both parties show their alienation to "WE THE PEOPLE"!

I WRITE THIS POST WITH SADNESS IN MY HEART, REALIZING IN ONLY THE LAST CHAPTER OF MY LIFE THAT THE GOOD CITIZENS OF THIS COUNTRY HAVE BEEN TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF.

I WAS RAISED AFTER A GREAT WAR, WHEN LOYALTY MEANT SOMETHING. PRIDE . . . ONCE SO GREAT WE STOOD UP IN SCHOOL CROSSING OUR HEARTS AND SAID THE PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME THAT WAS DONE IN OUR SCHOOLS?

I PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO THE FLAG OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA AND TO THE REPUBLIC FOR WHICH IT STANDS, ONE NATION UNDER GOD, INDIVISIBLE, WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL.

WITH TEARS AND SADNESS I STILL PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE! ALMOST A LIFETIME HAS CHANGED ME. I GREW UP BELIEVING OUR GOVERNMENT WAS LOOKING OUT FOR ME. HOW NAIVE I ONCE WAS! TRUTH IS HARD TO BELIEVE IN. IS IT TOO LATE? PROBABLY, OUR FUTURE GENERATIONS SHALL PAY THE PRICE OF THE LATE GREAT AMERICA. I'M GLAD I WON'T BE AROUND TO SEE THE ONE WORLD GOVERNMENT.

IN MY LIFETIME I'VE SEEN SO MANY CHANGES. THE WORLD BECOMES SMALLER. IF THE UNITED STATES IS ONLY 5% OF THE WORLDS POPULATION, HOW DOES THE REST OF THE WORLD GET BY.

WE IMPLODE FROM THE MONEY HUNGRY, MONEY GRUBBING, MINORITY ONES, ADDICTED TO POWER AND CONTROL. WHAT'S SO SAD, THERE IS PLENTY FOR ALL. IF THE ONES THAT HAVE IT ALL . . . .?   I CAN'T HELP THINKING YOU CAN ONLY DO AND HAVE SO MUCH, AFTER A CERTAIN AMOUNT WHAT GOOD IS IT? THEY MUST THINK THEMSELVES  "GODS!"

I FIND IT MOST INTERESTING THAT SOME ONE, A BILLIONAIRE ALREADY WITH SO MUCH POWER, WANTS MORE. IS HE FOR REAL, I MEAN A MAN WITH THAT MUCH EGO ALREADY. THE ESTABLISHMENT, ARE THEY TRULY FIGHTING HIM OR ARE THEY LOCKED IN TOGETHER.

I FEAR TO THINK HE MAY BE THE LAST GREAT HOPE. IS WHAT WE SEE AND READ FROM THE MEDIA TRUTHFUL? CAN'T HELP BUT QUESTION THEM. IS THERE A REAL REVOLUTION UNDERWAY OR ARE WE BEING ORCHESTRATED BY THE ONES I HAVE DESCRIBED. I WISH FOR THE BEST, BUT FALL PREY TO THE PAST! 

Monday, March 14, 2016

Progress and Values

I was working on another post and plum confused myself, too much thinking I reckon! I'm not too good at thinking it's too hard. I'd rather just let my mind wander, go deep into the caverns searching. Sometimes nothing happens, then I just say "---- it and go to bed. Sometimes my mind just goes lickety-split and I follow it, trying to keep up with my typing. There still be unexplored sections and I love visiting those passageways. Yes I do! The older you get them there synapsey thing-a-ma-jigs go south on you or somewhere else, probably Pluto. That I believe is the little planet that was but is now not a planet. Heavens to Betsy we may be in for a ride this morning as in real early am. I really should go to bed but I wanna post something. At the rate this is going don't look like it'll be anything. I keep waiting for the automatic spirit something or the other to take over my body so I can take a break, seems them spirits ain't never around when you need one.

Them there spirits and the automatic writing shite wants nothing to do with me, so I just went to bed.

It is now half a day later, as in 5 pm. I shall try again I have something in my mind I shall try to write about that.

Could not sleep worth a darn, it's rainy, a dreadful day but I have gotten Rambo ( remember now that is my 4 lb. Yorkie, a real killer yes he is! ) used to riding. Anyhowst  ( I make up my own words sometimes, that is exactly how I heard it flow from me brain, please excuse an old fart like me. )

There ain't no wondur I cannot spell worth a shite! I always have the close caption on, my television cause I'm a mite deaf. A mite my arse!!! Well the words get all garbled up in me ears to me head. Anyhowst I have caught many mistakes in the spellin' on the television, so it's bad enough I cannot hear or spell worth a shite the damn television can't either. Yes, the computer will alert me to mistakes but I like to leave them in sometimes.

When I get up I'm always hungry and so is Rambo, he watches me and when I put my shoes and jacket on, he knowsa, its a riding time, plus chicken nugget time, he gets as happy as a pig in slop.

 (Okay! okay! okay! I grew up around my grandfather on my daddys side who was a poor man with poor ways and loved to raise pigs. )

So hi-ho, hi-ho its off we go. Shite my low oil light comes on, I bee a aiming to get it changed but keep forgetting. I put a quart in and off we go. I drive a 95 Monte Carlo so I must keep a eye on things you see. Chicken nuggets later I go to the store. I have a hankering for roast beef and cheese so by golly, I get me some. Then we ride around a bit.

I have not been back to my former workplace since the, passing out, dying, shock my heart back up thing in September of 2014. Well this building was built in 1997 for this company that was family owned and operated since 1872 that's right 1872!!! It was sold a couple months ago, nobody works there anymore. The business is still operating the new owners have streamlined it substantially. This building is no longer needed. Quite sad but the sign of the times.

It got me to thinking about many things I have seen in my life. That's progress I reckon. Progress always comes at a cost doesn't it? No matter whether we like it or not! I'll admit some is good, some is bad.

There is certain fundamental building blocks of human existence that should never be, progressed away. Values as in family values, that is the number one problem facing the last few generations and reaching epidemic proportions today!

What in tarnation has happened? The family life of the two parent system has changed immensely. Dad worked, mom stayed home to take care of the children. Family meals at the dinner table, conversations, real conversations, Norman Rockwell scene you know! Church, picnics, vacations, you see where I'm going.

Too many one parent households from divorce, the one parent forced to work. Kids growing up pretty much taking care of themselves, way to often.

Education most assuredly has gone down. Why? Well I'm sure many highly educated Educators know, why after all, they have Doctorates and letters behind their names.

I say "number one, every child, must have, is a good education." I read an eye opening statement, we The United States rank 30 out of 30 in education and number 1 out of 30 at spending, I say "wasting money."

Sad!, so sad! The United States just loves to waste money!

Seems to this old man, with few years left, "We The People" have stood back thinking our elected officials are looking out for "We The People." I don't think soo!!! They are nothing more than lifetime Politicians. Now seems to me that the vast majority are Lawyers! Well shucks! That there explain a lot to this old country fool.

I do not know what the newer generation think, I'm old and don't come into contact too much with them. I'm sure there are many good, caring ones. I question though with what you see firsthand, read about, see on the news whether we have enough good young men and women to override the adversity I believe exist.

Examples, I have too much time on my hands and read and watch documentaries and such. The drug epidemic I read about is overwhelming, to an old, naïve, fat fart! ( Hey how do you like my description of myself? ) That's the illegal drug epidemic. Now lets add in the amount of Doctor prescribed drugs, it's plum fucking scary to me. Seems a lot of kids have to get away from the every day reality of living. Once again I suppose the lack of discipline, love. understanding, general discussions of parenting are lost, slipped through the hands of not enough time, money, values and such.

Progress, has progressed humanity backwards, in many ways. We know what they are, whether we're willing to say or not. The greatest single invention of mankind is the greatest tool ever, yet the problems it has laid upon us are real.

Our minds have been unable to keep up with the advances in technology.

The ones that "We The People" have made so rich that we cannot even comprehend nor write enough zeros to tally such figures.

The two Political Parties have brought us to this point and the corruption at this moment is playing out. They have controlled us for . . . forever and we did not even know it!

We are orchestrated by the all knowing, all seeing ones that think us as simpletons. They're right, look at where we are at this time in history.

What are our choices that the next President will either continue us with the worst of times?

What is the possibility that the next President will save us and produce this country into the best of times?

So who is the candidate that will bridge us successfully into the future?

Hillary Clinton with so much being held over her head, can she get the Democratic nod?

Bernie Sanders and socialism, seems a nice man, liked by many!

The Republican side is down to four, from a starting field of 17.

One seems to be far out front, not a Politician at all, a billionaire, imagine that. Seems the dragon has awakened! Feeding on all that the career Politicians has screwed up. He's used to being the Boss, having his way. He says what he thinks with the words, that identify him with the silent ones that have given up!

Will the Dragon be slain or will he reign. One things for sure, I hate politics but cannot wait to see the next episode of  the newest Reality show. Politics at Work!

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

ELITIST

This here message be fer y'all that don't know me. I like having fun with my little exercises in writin'. My favorite author growing up was Samuel Clemens, you know Mark Twain. Bet few of you have read his work, he died over 100 years ago. Any-whoo, I like typin' fer fun, AND since I be many decibels away from normal, I be legally deaf in the high pitch range. What-ta, what-ta I be a tryin' ta tell ya is, my hearing and mind plays tricks with me. I find the words get all garbled up from my ears to me mind to me, fingers. I laugh at myself and let the misspelled words go because it find it fun, besides it be my blog and I can do it if I want to.

I know y'all out there with perfect hearing have no idee what I be a talkin' about.

The writer now returns to normal, if possible!

I'm sure you have heard the word elite many times. If I said "the Navy Seals are the elite soldiers." You would understand, meaning well trained, best of the bunch.

Apparently there are people above the Politicians in Washington that are the real power. Who would a thought that? Not me, not me, not me! Ain't no difference than it's ever been. You think man has changed? Not me, not, me, not me!

Let's go back to the caveman. A big strong caveman can bully all the others, right. Then a smart caveman comes along. He becomes the leader cause he is smarter. The big strong caveman realizes that if he teams up with Mr. Smart Caveman, he would be better off. He is the strong arm, doing what he does best, and along with Mr. Smart, things become even better. Women, best chunk of wooly mammoth. Mr. Smart be the elitist. He sits back and does his thinking, telling ever one else their position in the caveman cave.

A good ways through history Mr. Smart becomes a King. Kings and Queens pass on their titles through their genes, unless they're challenged by some uppity uppers within their kingdom, or some bigger bullies plow through the kingdom like the Romans.

About now you're saying to yourself, "Where in tarnation is he going with this?"

Glen's answer "don't rightly know, but sure is fun getting there."

So within this little scenario you have farmers, boot makers, you know all the necessary trades to support the little kingdom of the King. The Mr. King has his taxman and loyal army to get whatever he wants done. He's one of the elite, through bloodline, or just making, oopsey, taking so much money from the middle class, oops again, peasants.

More modern times finds so many more countries, so many more, Kings, Queens, so many other titles of the ones in charge.

Ones become fixated by wealth, just can't get enough.

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Times . . . they sure are a changin'!

When I was working I had much on my mind, I thought my head may explode. Now it seems I must watch TV to get my brain waves firing, believe me when I say the firing is not pretty. I force myself to watch shows, I never would before. Why? I'm not sure. I'm so bored and wanting desperately to feel alive, The pain in my back is welcomed, some days.

Bruce Jenner won a gold medal in the Olympics way back in the seventies, I remember as though it was only yesterday. He appeared on the Wheaties box, wow it don't get any better than that for an athlete, 40 years later he has his/her own reality show and now is Caitlyn. Times they sure are a changing!

There are many different Judge type shows that showcase the ignorance, of our society. The lowest of television shows are the ones like Maury Povich, Jerry Springer and so forth. They prey upon poor trash, of all types, at least they're not racist as the underbellies of the good 'ol U.S. of A. These shows, show  why we are near the bottom of education. We're rated last in the 30 countries counted, first in the amount of our dollars spent, imagine that! While I be on this education shite, why are people watching this, I reckon that shows the education factor heah?

So many shows, and nothing to watch. Religious shows trying to save our souls, just send them money for a bottle of blessed water, blessed towels. Many seem to bless these shows with their money. You remember Jim Baker from way back when, disgraced and spent time in prison if I remember correctly. Jimmy Swaggart, we all remember his scandal and crying for forgiveness.

Back in their hey days or should it be called paydays, Jim Baker was worth 130 million dollars. He's repented and is still on. By happenstance I come across him the other day, he was wearing a red hat and damn I did not recognize him. Wow! My curiosity has the best of me how much is he worth now? So I looked it up and the article said "under review." How about that!

I have no idea where that word happenstance came from. I have never used it before. Funny how certain words will pop when your playing these black keys. My greatest wish at this time in my life is to enjoy playing this here instrument the way I once did. It was so meaningful in a way never felt before. Before I had little time and played the keys every night before bedtime and slept like a baby. Now I have all the time in the world but seems so challenging. I have to force myself. Can't force it though it becomes like work.

I looked 'ol Jimmy Swaggart up. In his heyday/payday/paypal, was worth 140 million. Now his net worth is 1.5 million suuuuure!

One of the articles also gave Jerry Falwel's hey day at 60 million.

You know that sure is a lot of blessed water, towels and such!

The Kardashians, what can I say? Pampered, rich, L.A. ????? Now there is also a new show, Kocktails with Khloe, give the world a fricking break. What can we expect with 'ol Bruce Jenner being their step-dad? I think he has some children of his own with Kris. I'm not an expert and looked it up, sur-nuff Kylie and Kendall.

I HAVE BEEN CAREFUL IN TRYING NOT TO OFFEND RELIGION. AND POLITICS SEEM TO ALWAYS BE ON MY MIND. RELIGION FROM MY UPBRINGING AND THE WAY IT'S USED FOR MAKING SOME PEOPLE RICH. A FRIEND OF MIND SAID "RELIGION IS MAN MADE." I CONCURR.

MY THOUGHTS ARE MERELY THAT MY OWN FROM MY HEART THROUGH MY BRAIN. MY LIFETIME OF WONDERING, EXAMINING, IS JUST THAT MINE. I HAVE SEEN THE GOOD AND THE BAD OF RELIGION IN MY LIFETIME. I WILL MAKE A PROMISE TO YOU MY FRIENDS, I WILL NO LONGER HOLD BACK, I WILL TURN 'ER LOOSE AND SAY WHAT I MEAN, AND MEAN WHAT I SAY. Goodnight my friends from around the globe, may peace feel your heart, until we meet again. Glen

Oligarchy

It's really late Saturday night or really early Sunday morning, depending I reckon on whether you have been to bed or just getting up. Any-who it's 5 in the am Sunday March the 6. Where the hell did January and February go? I have many completed post but I tire of writing the get off your chest shite, you know! Damn . . . . . I'm having a terrible time coming up with something to say.

It might be the best of times OR the worst of times after this presidential election. Only in my nightmare could I dream of Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump fighting for the presidency. Hillary and all her baggage and Donald. You cannot become as rich as he is without baggage of his own. Is this where our country has come to? Seems a bad B movie playing in reality. Hah maybe it's a real reality show. The ratings have been through the roof. You have Dodzilla, verses Marko Sharko and Teddy Cruzman. Has looked more like a wrestling match or a three ring Circus as of late. Kasich has kept his cool and the Ice Man Carson looks the most leader like to me and he's done left the building!

Damn there I go again back to politics. I wonder if there is a Political Asylum for old Politicians, well if there's not, there should be. One of the problems is some of them should of retired many years ago. Let these younger ones that are full of piss and vinegar get in there and shake it up since they're being left with a massive debt, get rid of the lifetime politicians and get some new blood.

Something needs to put a rocket down North Korean pudgy cartoon character looking leaders pants. Better still tie him to one of his missiles and send him into space.

Former President Jimmy Carter said "our government of today is an oligarchy." Whow-wee he getting mean, whatever that word means. I like it and don't rightly know it.

Oligarchy is a government run by a small group and influential people, rather than the majority. Seems to me old Jimmy still has a few synapses firing!

I believe Oligarchy has always been the case. Money talks and we the commoners will follow for a little cheese on a stick. It will never change don't fool yourself.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Waiting

Good afternoon, evening, morning wherever you may be. It's old Glen coming at you from the heart of the Heartland. Where would that be? The Midwest. Are we tired of the political situation? Hell yes! I'm sick already and we're just getting started. Sure looks like a lot of clowns to me.

I find myself so tired of life in general, I could just cry, and I think I will. You know if it wasn't for Taco and Rambo my two dogs I would be nutsier than I already am. I talk to them and you know what, they're better than drugs, therapy and butter pecan ice cream. Just today I was in a silly mood and I wanted to see their reaction to me pretending to cry. Taco my Chihuahua just looked at me. Rambo my little Yorkie, all 4 pounds of him looked at me questioning my actions came over to me and licked me in the face. I was totally awed by this reaction. I can say anything to them and they'll listen to me, looking me right in the eye. Eerily strange and cute at the same time. Sure they have no idea about what I'm saying but just the look they give me is special. You animal lovers will know what I'm talking about, the rest of you will think that gut is fricking out of his head! Try therapy and see how much they charge. I'd rather talk to Rambo or Taco, they'll look me in the eyes, acknowledge me and make me feel a lot better for peanuts, well actually dog food. I take Rambo riding with me and doing chores, we'll get us some chicken nuggets and have a high-o-time, he can out walk me.

I'm closer to my dogs than anyone at this stage in my life. I suppose it's because I spend 24 hours a day and feed them and take care of them, since I can't work anymore. As I type this Rambo is curled up asleep on my desk on one of my shirts. Taco is in his bed at my feet. There is absolutely no doubt in my mind without them I would be in a different state of mind, I've been there done that, don't want no more of that shite! Whatever it takes to keep on a sailing in a nice steady wind is what I want the remainder of my life to be about. I no longer wish to be around people, seems I'm talking a different language, even communication with family and friends is strange anymore. I find it best to live within myself. I reckon myself understands me, forced to after well over 60 years. I'm not saying I'm right or wrong, it's easier to just keep my mouth shut, sheltering myself from the storms of living.

I'm frustrated at this point in my life, surviving apparently is not enough, living countless days neither winning or losing is hard. Harder than most realize. They act like it would be so nice to not work, nor have a care in the world. My passions are long gone. Just waiting . . . waiting is hard!

So my passion is not Christ but my two small furry friends. Taco makes me get up every morning by jumping all over my bed, finally laying on my chest and dragging the blanket off me. He is still full of that playful puppiness that endears him to me, reminding me of a long ago, a lost time, I once had. What can I say about Rambo he's a lap dog that wants to be around me all the time. He is 5 years old and so well behaved and so little it's easy to overlook him.