I'LL BE BACK!

Been a mite under the weather for a few weeks now. ( A mite my ass! )

Just wanted to check in with you to say """HELLO, I'LL BE BACK"""!

Even though my physical body has been on life support, my brain activity has come up with a new meditative technique. Restful sleep has went down the 'crapper'! You know toilet! Began about three weeks ago. Glen's dreams.. vanished. Well now, if you have read many of my posts, Glen looves, and always dreams! Yes, I do! AMEN on that! That be my saving grace! Yes it is! WAS! What made Glen's dreams disappear? Don't know! Not rightly sure about that! SOMETHUN has penetrated Glen's lack of defense shields! Uh huh! Should a.. I say  "SHOULD A!"  SHOULD A, seen it coming! Fall, change o weather, temperatures up and down. I want to ask y'all out there a question  tonight..  ""how come.. I say HOW COME...... we are always soo much smarter, after... we fight a, a, war? I 'm humbled tonight as I examine the wreckage of the war zone I've fought day and night battles. PLEASE... take my word for it! This battle was a long and hard fought one! The battle was over Glen's mind! Bunches of them germs, gathered headed for the most sensitive parts of the head. There was cannons going off behind the eyes, smoke venting through the ears. Dare I move, walk, heaven forbid sneeze, cough? No way! If and I say iff , I bent my head over... Fourth of July. It were a gallant attempt at taking over what little of a mind I have left. The smokes a clearing, them invader germs. What can I say sneaky little !@#$%^& ass holes!

Even in the darkest hours, I found if I lie perfectly still not twinkling, nary a toe, nor whisker, then, and only then!!! THEN THE MOTHER LODE OF PEACEFUL, MEDITATIVE, BEAUTIFUL STORIES, COME TO ME! SO HAPPY! SO SAD! WAS I! THESE HEARTWARMING, HEART FILLING STORIES, OF WHICH THERE WAS A PLENTY, SLOWLY, EVER SO SLOWLY BEGAN TO REJUVENATE ME!

Well there be good blows, and there be bad blows, to this here story. The good news is... I didn't die!!!

The bad news is, as BEAUTIFUL as them stories were... there gone! I was excited throughout the drug induced stupor and my new exciting meditative slumber, I could not type, to save them beautiful stories. I'm talking many days here! I vow to recapture, pieces of them, the many stories I wish to tell. I'm a renewed man full of VIGOR! Ya see my dreams, my stories are soo special to me!!! I wake up sometimes in a dream, filled with exhilaration, compassion, contentment, love, happiness......... they linger, renewing me for endless seconds. My wish is, to die peacefully in my sleep, during one of my beautiful moments! Till that time, "I wish to take YOU with me !!!  THAT, I NOW KNOW, IS WHY, ONLY NOW, IN MY TWILIGHT YEARS. THE CHALLENGE OF ATTEMPTING THROUGH MY UNEDUCATED, UN-ORCHESTRATED ATTEMPT AT BEING PURELY ME, EXCITES ME. I HAVE NO ONE TO PLEASE OR TO BE, BUT MYSELF. I KNOW, WANT, NOR NEED BOUNDARIES BECAUSE THERE ARE, NO BOUNDARIES, I WISH ONLY, TO BE ME!!!!! THANKS EVER SO MUCH AND GOODNIGHT! Yer friend glen..