I CAN'T SLEEP, MY BRAIN'S TOO ACTIVE, SO I'LL MAKE IT A TWO FOR ONE DAY FOR MY FRIENDS, IF YA DON'T MIND! OH MY! OH MY! I JUST REALIZED, IT'S ONLY SEVEN HOURS INTO THIS DAY! IF I CAN'T SLEEP... THERE MAY BE MORE!!! OH NO! AH, HA, HA, HA! GOODNIGHT!
I'm trying to rearrange my sleep for my new schedule. I planned on being asleep at this moment, hard to change ones sleeping patterns over night! Damn that's kind of cute!
Seems I feel the need to apologize for always writing about work, but dah! When one spends half your waking hours there experiencing the most emotional, and silly ass things, kinda hard to talk, deep sea fishing, brain surgery, climbing the highest mountains around the globe, Politics, (YUCK!), ETC.
I'm a simple man, I like it that way during the closing acts of my life. I use to like my brain humming away at Indianapolis 500 speed! Not any more, huh uh! I much rather prefer sitting on the front porch with my puppy dog, swinging my life away, looking for a relaxing way, to finalize my last years of life!
MAYBE this is what GlenView is all about! Seems to make about as much sense as anything I can come up with.
I read the best book of my life only six months ago! (Crime And Punishment) What does one do after that? That book would not have been so enjoyable if I did not identify with the main character, and with so much emotional content of the other characters. Only after one has experienced the always present ups, and downs, that even the simplest daily activities, sensations, feelings, with so much emotional content that lies within, IF you dare to see!
Ahh! Those ever present sensations of life are what creates life! Yet, many I fear cannot grasp or feel the daily sensations, I'm referring tooooo! Am I right!
How can a book written 150 years ago still carry so much human emotions, from laughter to tears, inner workings of the mind, rattled from living. Inner workings of gears humming along well oiled, to squeaky, rusty, filled with impurities! Another language, another people, another society altogether!
That's so easy to answer! No matter where we are on this Alcatraz styled insanity every where rock, WE face the same thing don't WE? SURE WE DO!!! Color, language, religion, types of government doesn't matter! We're born, loved, hated, brainwashed, but down deep we have the same wants needs!
Damn all we need to do is see through the bullshit, we're surrounded with from the time we're born to the time we die! AH! That there... be the problem... brothers and sisters of the world! We don't think for ourselves!!!
To understand ones self, is to have knowledge! From the Holy books to the latest novels, all words for us, as INDIVIDUALS to interpret, comprehend!
I despise anyone telling me what I think... believe! That's the mighty foundation, the building blocks of whom we be! I be ME! You be, YOU!
WE should be going to school to learn how to read, pure and simple right? Wrong, if we're going to school to have others explain what WE should be searching for!
No knowledge is gained if we follow others, ideology, blindly! WE must feel, therefore to find!
Damn! I reckon some things that have been bottled up within ME has decided to jump out, bout now! That's quite alright, better to release than destroy! I be a Watcher, always have been, along with a Seer, forced to at an early age! I see, understanding through the gained knowledge of being hard of hearing, able to see more, than I truly wanted! I carry an unwanted burden, out of necessity from my learned, somewhat aborted, younger childhood years! Not a curse, no, no, no! The need to understand, to make sense, of nonsense. WHY? Curiosity, inquisitiveness, sensitivity, all plus more I fear! It has made me what I am. I can write of only, whom I BE! Those of you that have also experienced the roller coaster ride of life's ups and downs can feel along with me, in my words, as I tell them, in MY way!
Be an easy read or a hard read, that my dear friends is the love of words, to touch others in ways not thought possible!!
I remember during high school thinking about Speech and Debate Class. I Did not quite understand what the hell was going on! EXCEPT teaching ones, to speak effectively, debating subjects.
The makings of future leaders. It does not need to be the message! The truly great Speakers can hold the audience, the congregation, the people of a nation into believing any message. Don't think so huh! Then you be one of them school children, still listening to what the teacher is telling you, to believe out of the books chosen by others to teach you, what to believe.
Do you REALLY believe it makes a difference in whether a Democrat or a Repiblicanis in office!
I probably live about as simple a life, as one can today, unless he lives in a cave somewhere! I choose it that way, yet the activities I of are true! I 've only grazed the surface. The leadership at the lowest level I encounter in my day to day existence... I cannot accurately describe, lest I go on a four letter rant.
Common Sense, what does that mean to you. We have several senses, all mighty important! Where does this common sense fit in your neighborhood, your family, your place of work?
It's been a rough week here on the homefront. I am going to try to catch up with all you have written lately just as soon as I can. For now I am checking in, letting you know I am actually alive even if I felt something like death this past week.
ReplyDeleteI promise to be back and re-read this so I can comment in a half-thoughtful manner. Also I will catch up on whatever I have not read here in GlenView.
Have a good week with your lady and I hope you can re-adjust your sleeping patterns :-)