The Spirit Hit Me, or I Could Cry!

My imagination does not seem what it once was. Perhaps, if I try writing more, it will return. I use to get off work in the early am hours, and be chomping at the bit to get home and peck away, like a newborn chick, searching for something to fill me. It was pleasure beyond the first slice of a pizza straight out of the oven. Ya see I gotta be me, I gotta be me. When I was in the working, normal, whatever the fuck it was, I always had something to stick to me mind, a word, a phrase, a look, could set my imagination, imagining, whoo-wee, it were fun. I miss the different thoughts that crossed my mind. Since my little bout with not being here, I'm the same but, different. My mind and emotions have gone from, feeling like I could change the world. I had a lifetime of experience under my belt, and let my inner emotions override good sense. All my emotions were on my sleeve, it hurt nobody but me.

I have become hooked on documentaries, any show where I might learn something. I don't believe everything I view, certainly not. Every one has to put their spin on the subject. I've viewed a few episodes of a show called Globe Trekker, I think that's the title, I hope so, if not it will make me look stupidier, than I already am. ( I like that word stupidier, it fits me, and a lot of people. ) It takes you to places the average person will never see, you know the world is full of people we'll never meet, I like visiting, if only for a few minutes. The world, is so different, duh!

The world becoming as one, will change one day. The races will be mixed to the point there is no separation. It seems to be happening fast in my lifetime. Is that good or bad? Seems like that would solve a lot of the problems we face. There will be no barriers, if everybody is like one, a complete mixture of all that would solve much of our current situation, would it not? We would hope, but there's about as much chance as a snowball in hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here in the U.S. of A. we are the world. The world has come here for a long time, searching for a better life, and that is U. S. of A. okay. Ingenious people, hard working, merely wanting a chance. Freedom of worship, prosperity, becoming a world leader. Where simple folk wanting to make a life better for their future families.

The trouble is, we cannot take care of the world. The price has been paid and it is breaking the back of a once great nation. The world wants us for what we can do for them. Add to that the Elitist Royalty tearing us apart, Monopoly, and Chess all rolled into one.

I never understood in my early years when movies and newspapers made references to places like, Chinatown, in say Los Angeles. I'm a boy from the Midwest. So the big cities of the U. S. of A. have so many different cultures. That was a hard thing to fathom. I heard some experty person  ( That be my mind and I like experty! ) Saying it takes a generation or two to merge into the American way.   ( I don't think Mr. Experty is an expert! )

The problems, We The U. S. of  A. are no more apparent than today, they ainna merging. They want their cultures, their beliefs, and the hell with others.

Wars will always be, because all the cultures know their right. Religion is killing, yep sad ain't it! Human rights so different, in the world and we're to become one, only in your dreams!

I have learned more history in the last year than my previous, well over sixty years. The history I'm learning about is sad, disheartening actually! Countries flexing their muscle through naval, and military superiority, killing off the poor cultures who did not have a chance. I'm saddened as I am attempting to read the Bible, the wars, the killing, saddens my soul.

I'm veering off the highway into the land of Glen, please hang with me as my automatic writing, ghost writer, spirit writing, has been turned lose!

There's nobody to stop the bloodletting we find the world in. It will become worse, that's for sure! As they world tries to become one, the Royalty of the planet stands back and watches. They want this. Civil wars everywhere, race wars, religious wars, wars over everything.

I'M SICK AND TIRED, AND GLAD I WON'T BE AROUND MANY MORE YEARS. I THINK BEST TO START OVER, THEN I THINK, HOW LONG BEFORE IT STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN!

Week in Review

Week in review, let me see if I can remember anything. There was Monday through Sunday, that I can remember, Silly ain't I? I watch the news every night, but what it was about slips my old fricking mind. We had weather, a big system, I mean a really big weather system bringing a heap o snow for the eastern states. Man o man when a system like this one comes together, taint pretty. ( taint be worse than ain't ) I be a feeling my morning milk this morning. Had be a couple eggs and toast to go along with my skim milk. You know, no I reckon you don't, cause I haven't typed it yet. Please don't pay no attention to the words I use, ya see I be hard of hearing and I type the words how-sa I hear them in my head. Where was I? Oh I remember, I be sittin' down and tryin' to think and type at the same time. How in tarnation does these people multi task? I'm petting my four pound Yorkie, and doing this, woo-wee. Y'all that may be new to me little blog, I like to act silly and have fun with me words.

Back to my breakfast I use to could not drink skim milk, found it right nasty like drinking nasty water, if I wanted water I would drink water, I'd say to myself. Be really a tryin' to do better as far as the eatin' and drinkin' thing, ya know. Have give up everything I use to hold dear, sugary drinks, caffeine, tacos, pizzas, I mean everything, including salt, when I cook I add salt to nothin', absolutely nothing! Once you get use to this, you can do it. Until then baby it ain't easy! Sugar free jello, pudding, pretty damn good.

Well, ain't that just like old Glen to get carried away. Oh! oh! oh! week in review I remember something about polluterticians. ( how about that word? )

It's been so cold the last week we put a sweater on my Yorkie. He don't dilly-dally when he goes out to do his business.

Was it this week or a week ago their was a Republican debate, hard to remember, you see Donald Trump on the news so much.

What the hell is wrong with the water in Flint Michigan? Seems where they got the water was changed and the lead pipes supplying it released toxins that's extremely dangerous to children. How can something like this happen. For two years it was like this. The Doctors of Flint confirmed lead in testing their patients. I'm so flabbergasted about this I could cry. With officials watching out for the safety of we the people, especially children, !#@$%%^^&&%$$#@#!#$%%^. That's what I think of that!!!

Computer troubles for Hilary Clinton. Bernie Sanders wanting to give everything to us free. Well fuck yell look at the wars that have been fought in the last several years, the giving away of money to big banks. All the debt that has accumulated "We The People" should get our share. The federal reserve just keeps the printing presses humming I want my share of the pie. Make a pie chart showing we the poor and the middle class get the crumbs.

Giving poor old Iran more money than I can comprehend. Plus assets frozen in our banks since 1979, with interest. So $400,000 turns into $1.3 billion. That would sur-nuff repair them pipes in Flint!

I'm getting too tired to think. With the two trillion dollars spent in Iraq, and Afghanistan, we should be paying down our national debt. Part of the oil production money should be coming back here. We need somebody smart in Washington cause one think for sure taint none now!

Good night my friends, until we meet again, keep the covers pulled over your head, have sweet dreams, and pet your doggie for there ain't a fucking thing we can do about it!

I have nothing to give

I have nothing to give, except to me the most important thing to me, a piece of my mind. I love listening to experts give their opinions. Sometimes when they hit upon one of my thoughts, I say amen brother! I admit it's rare, the reason seems simple I'll use the old expression, Walk a mile in my shoes. I'm going to add to that a something between Cruz Trump. Cruz made a comment you can't compare the people of New York to South Carolina, as far as beliefs, experiences, values, so on and so forth. Straightforward comment to me. Trump jumped on that bringing in the World Trade Center. That reverberated across the land like a tsunami. We are one and the same, sure whether it be the desert, mountains, farmland, we are a tad different. I do believe for the most part our values, family, religions, are more similar than different. Pitting one against the other, as we are one. We the People! All states face the same problems.

I do reckon my last post was some of that, accidental writing, ghost writing, automatic writing err whatever! I just go where me mind takes me. Good or bad and away I go.

What about the candidates for president? "Oops don't go there!"

My computer acts so strange anymore, must be possessed. All these viruses from around the world is killing off everything. Whenever they take over the world and kill us off they'll straighten themselves up. Without humans to screw everything up the world will be a better place. Can't you imagine a reality show for artificial intelligence. How about the news, how would that work? Who would be in command, let's say how would a presidential election go? Would there be career politicians? Would they have insurance, time off and so on and so forth? How would the wars be fought? Perhaps robot soldiers fighting robot soldiers from different countries. What would they be fighting over? If robots are painted different colors maybe that will cause a color problem. Would the artificial intelligence create within themselves a sense of superiority over their own kind? Interesting !!!

Kind a funny I must say. With new technology comes good and bad.

The challenge of going to the moon in the 60's seemed impossible to me as a young lad. We did it so they say with antiquated technology. Warner Von Braun the man that made it possible must of been a visionary or a man literally out of this world.

I have a point if I can get there, hopefully I can connect my thought like I had a plan, most likely not, but boys and girls this is how my mind works. Believe it or not, my mind is slowed down compared to many years ago.

Technology is a wonderful thing. For example that big collider over in Europe most certainly is a thing beyond comprehension. Mucho billions of dollars to send whatever it be a sending around a 30 mile hole in the ground. I don't know, nor understand, I wonder if all them mad scientist do? Maybe it's going to send us to Mars through a black whole something err the other.

My point if-un I can remember the point I had a few minutes ago. Zooming light years ahead of our mental capacity may destroy us. Oh well I'll be fodder for the worms way before then, hopefully, I'm not so sure, the witnessing of the lack of human intelligence I see ever day may make me wrong.

Yesterday, today, and tomorrow

Every day's the same. Don't know what day it is, most of the time. I reckon, there's no need to. I'm a candle burnt down, with little left. My shining has been many days past. Hell, I never knew it was lite when it was burning! I'm just another brick in the wall as one of my favorite songs said. Too late to do anything about it, too late, too care. On any given day, good or bad few things keep me going. The love of family, love of my pets, from me, to them, them to me is my highlight. The need that they need me, keeps the small flame going. The things I once deemed important, some more so than others, are long gone. The shell of a man remains, brain still functions, with little need to. Going to the store and the Doctor takes a days worth of energy.

I'M NOT ASKING FOR PITY, I KNOW WE ALL WILL GO THROUGH MANY STAGS OF LIFE BEFORE THE LAST LUAU. YA SE I STILL HAVE MY SENSE OF HUMOR! THAT'S A MIGHTY IMPORTANT.

The nightly news, always the same. Yer asking, "why watch it then?" I must for an unknown reason, probably makes me feel like I'm still in the game. What game? Huum, good question. Y'all mighty smart out there! I can no longer read the newspaper, they keep making the size of the paper smaller, the print must be also smaller cause I can no longer make out the words. I reckon there be no need to read it anyway, at least watching the evening news they can tell me everything I need to know. Ha, ha!

It is glorious, when I come across a movie that holds my attention, believe me, it doesn't happen very often. If I do come across one the commercials ruin it. Saturday night I happened upon a rare delight. The movie Water Diviner, with Russell Crowe, directed by Russell Crowe,  it peaked my interest. Good movie with many messages. The kind of movie they used to make, I highly recommend it. It was on H. B. O. so there was nary a commercial, hallelujah! After this movie was another, Exodus, Gods and Kings.

Recently I came across a documentary about Moses and the battles he fought as he was leading his people across the many years returning to the homeland. This documentary as well as other information through the years seemed to strike a chord. Seems to me if I remember correctly Moses struck down one of his own tribes. The wars and slaughtering is inconceivable as in one conversation Moses tells his brother to kill everyone of their enemies, including women and children.

WHY I'M SAYING THIS I DON'T KNOW, HOWEVER IT WILL BE FOREVER ON MY MIND. IN SUNDAY SCHOOL AS A CHILD THE BIBLE STORIES SEEMED JUST STORIES. STORIES THAT HAVE BEEN TOLD,  WRITTEN DOWN. JUST DOESN'T SEEM REAL, ALL THE DEATH, AND WARS.

EVEN TODAY AS THE NEWS REPORTS OF UNREST IN THE MODERN WORLD, HOW CAN THIS BE POSSIBLE? THE STATISTICS I HAVE READ ABOUT IN THE MANY WARS THE UNITED STATES HAS FOUGHT, ESPECIALLY THE CIVIL WAR IS HORRENDOUS, DISGUSTING, UN-FUCKING-BELIEVABLE!

THER'S ALWAYS BEEN WARS, ALWAYS WILL BE AS MAN FIGHTS OVER RELIGION, MORE LAND AS CONQUERORS KILL FOR THE POWER AND MONEY IT BRINGS THEM. SAD AIN'T IT? GREED, POWER, CONTROL.

This is on my mind, maybe it makes sense, I don't know. There is no understanding of the un-understanding ways, is there. I suppose my fault is I want to make sense out of the un-sensible ways of man. I CANNOT!!!!

A strugglin'

I be a strugglin'. Strugglin' be struggling, only I like leaving out the g, ya see. Why? hell I don't know!

I'm trying to get back into writing a little something, something. I used to enjoy it so much, and want to again. I have ideas, they seem to make so much sense, at that moment, but when I sit down to write a blog, they disappear, I cannot put in words my thoughts. The harder I try the more frustrating it becomes, so I erase it. I use to pick a word and put my own spin on it, that doesn't come anymore.

I'm not depressed, nor happy. I find myself making do with where I'm at mentally and physically. Can't change that can I?

Very few movies move me. Is it a blessing . . . quite possibly. All movies seem to be, been there done that!

My wife brought home the trilogy, Lord of the rings, they were talking about how good it was, so over the holidays she wanted to watch it. We did not make it through the first movie of the trilogy. It was not to our liking.

Wars, death, destruction just ain't my cup a tea. ( Speaking a tea, sounds right good 'bout now. ) No matter how much cuteness goes into a film and special effects they don't hold my attention. Seems they make them so long anymore.

Occasionally I do come across a movie that I enjoy. I watched Snow White and the Huntsman a
couple weeks ago, I truly enjoyed it. Since I am a dog lover and now have a chihuahua, I come across Beverly Hills Chihuahua late one night and enjoyed it, Ya see I'm still a kid at heart, it be my body that's old.

I have a new car riding buddy, a four pound, yorkie I call RAMBO. He's five years old, actually his name is Tigger, I like Rambo better! Ha, ha, ha!

Talking about movies, there was a Billy Jack marathon a while back, all three movies, Billy Jack, The Trial of Billy Jack, and Billy Jack Goes to Washington. It has been a heap o years since I have seen these, actually I have never seen The Trial of Billy Jack, so it was rather interesting.

I like documentaries, I have come to the conclusion that no matter how much they peak my interest that their made to entertain, and how much is fact, or fiction. In my later years I have learn to question everything, for behind everything, lies a motive. It's just this simple, we're controlled, manipulated in all aspects of everything.

To believe in something, someone, undeniably that you lose your own mind, well being is unnatural at this stage in my life.

I do love listening to different opinions, however I believe they're opinions. No one has, nor knows the answers. Some seem to believe they do, therefore they go to great lengths to drive their will upon others. When we lose our ability to reason and think for ourselves the masses are controlled, in more ways than I can contemplate,

You see how my mind wanders, I cannot stay focused on one thing. Well that my friends is me. How I ever wrote a few stories is beyond me. I am a thinkin' about a new continuing story, about my dogs. I may call it Neighborhood Tails, Rambo and Friends, you get the picture. If I can keep my mind focused and remember all the animals I've had it might be fun.

        Rambo and I will go places and as soon as he sees me putting on my jacket he does his little dance. He stands on his hind legs, stretching his front legs skyward and dances around. I have a cushion I place for him to see out the window in my momma's old 95 Monte Carlo. Well we hid to Burger King for chicken nuggets. A couple bits for Rambo and away we go. Sometimes I'll go to the store for groceries, he'll be watching the people go by enjoying every minute of it. Today after getting groceries we sit in the warmth of Mr. Sun. So peaceful, in no hurry enjoying the moment you know. Rambo was on my chest with his front paws on the top of the steering wheel, looked like he was going to drive, a man walks by looks at him and laughs, it made me laugh and feel good. Rambo unknowingly made a stranger laugh.

WELL MAYBE I CAN GET BACK IN THE SWING AGAIN BY USING MY ANIMALS. THE ADVENTURES OF RAMBO AND FRIENDS.

Once

Once, I felt the music, echo in my heart.

Laughter came easy, I was merely a child.

Love was unconditional, nary a heartbreak.

Family blankets me with warmth, when needed.

Growing up, shackles me.

At first, thread like, I break free.

Childish imagination, purity of heart, I wish not to lose.

Time for learning, must grow the mind.

Release the knowledge from the damn, more, more, more.

Knowledge is power, understanding.

Growing pains, easy for the body, not the heart.

Growing into adulthood, impossible without scars.

Ones held captive away from the world also strain, too much coddling.

Answers aren't easy.

Finding our own path, is perilous.

Knowledge gained over a lifetime, yields little fruit in our most developing years.

What you thought you knew, is not worth a single candle.

The later stages of life confirms a most unfortunate theory.

The battle never ends, never will.

Is the world better for giving me life?

Shall I have another go round?

No thank you, once is enough, as I wait for my last sunset!