HELLO IT'S ME, I'VE BEEN AWAY, FOR A LONG, LONG, TIME!
Many a thoughts have been swirling in my head, but I'm never near my computer when they do.
The title popped into my head Saturday in the wee hours of the morning as I try to rest my old, tired, body from pushing it beyond, where it doesn't wish to go. It was firing back at me, lobbing many a cannonballs into injuries accumulated over my lifetime. The accumulation of life has a way of taking a toll, don't it. Ya see I be in my sixties but My mind doesn't know it. I love to push myself beyond what my body can take. Why? I love the high that is released from pushing myself. Release them endorphins, adrenalin, make them synapses fire like it's fourth of July, or whatever that takes place in my mind creating a rush that I absolutely love. (Oh shit! Right now yer thinking "that old fart has crashed, and no amount of rebooting, or a boot up the anal cavity can save him!") No, no, no I'm going to attempt to explain myself. I have all these thoughts and emotions swirling like the Colorado River as people ride the white water for the thrill, agony to defeat seemingly undefeatable, to rise beyond ourselves to conquer the river and the day to day obstacles as we age. (WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT? YIKES! I DON'T KNOW, BUT IT SURE FEEL GOOD BROTHERS AND SISTERS! AMEN TO THAT! FEELS SO RIGHT, I HAVE BEEN AWAY TOO LONG! I'MMA MAKING A COMEBACK TONIGHT!!!"
Damn! I be wandering, but that's me, as I get to my point.
Tiredness of any kind, ainna good! No sir! As a child we played until we were plum tuckered out. Then we slept right nice. All that playing and release of energy was good for us.
Well now, flash forward and we're adults and we must get a job to earn our keep. Working for the man every night and day. Marriage, children, work, chores, children = tiredness, yep we are adults. We're young, we handle it somehow. As we age we notice aches and pains, oopsey, a sign of what's to come. (Yippee!)
Well now to get on with my story. Them aches and pains don't get NO BETTER! Them aches and pains have to be lived with, yep! Part of life, accept it and move on. Them damn aches and pains sometimes need more than a two day weekend, like this weekend!!! Tiredness of the old worn out body needs more than a little grease in them joints! There worn out, BABY! Yet I go day to day, have to, must to see another day. Can't give up, no sir!
Mind tires from strains of worry, fighting, mental scars accumulated, that never heal. Well maybe scar tissue heal slightly, but they'll rise again! Can't keep them mental scars down, can we? Well some try to drink and do other such foolhardiness. We must cope somehow and we do, life goes on. Not the way we want, but hey it's a life!
Tiredness from working the brain in a office is tiring, of that I'm sure. That mind get's so fricking tired, ya can't look at that monitor, or data. When my old mind get's so tired it just goes ka-put! Yes it does!
NOW I'VE GONE ON ABOUT THE BODY AND THE MIND, MY FAVORITE PART OF THIS LITTLE POST IS GONNA BE ABOUT THE SOUL. DOES THE SOUL GET TIRED?
MAN OH MAN! IT SURE GET'S A WORKOUT SOMETIMES, DON'T IT?
CALL IT THE SOUL, THE SPIRIT, IT BE THE NEVER ENDING ATTITUDE, FORTITUDE, THE FIRE OF A PERSON! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!
I MAY TESTIFY TO Y'ALL A WEE BIT TONIGHT. DON'T MIND DO YOU?
I HAVE OVERCOME ADVERSITY IN THE LAST SIX MONTHS OR SO. AMEN TO THAT BROTHERS AND SISTERS! I HAVE SUFFERED MUCH TIREDNESS OF THE BODY AND MIND! YES I HAVE! FOUGHT FOR THINGS, ALREADY PROMISED. SHOWED WHOOM . . . I AM AT THE AGE WHEN RETIREMENT SHOULD BE CONSIDERED. MY SOUL IS STILL EIGHTEEN, WHILE MY BODY CRUMBLES, AND MY MIND FLUTTERS, OCCASIONALLY. THE FIRE IN MY GUT STILL BURNS, AS I STOKE THE COALS OF MY SOUL. FOR WHEN THE FIRE WITHIN DIES . . .WELL NOW MANY THINGS HAVE BEEN SAID ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS AFTER THE LAST HEART BEAT. I'M NOT READY TO FIND OUT!
MY GOAL, AND I KNOW NOW, THAT I NEED THIS GOAL, IS TO GET BACK TO 15 TO 20 POSTS A MONTH. FOR WITHOUT THAT, THE TIREDNESS MAY SOMEDAY WIN!!!