we're all out of order!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's not easy being two people!

Some of you are saying "what?"    While some are saying, "I understand!"

I am both ying and yang.

I am both positive and negative.

I am both manic and depression.

I suffer from manic depression/bipolar.

I was officially diagnosed in 1995. After several miss diagnosis, therapist and of course the big "Head Shrinker, The Psychiatrist"

After almost twenty years of self understanding, on my own, I now understand it, live with it, learned to live within it! I myself have tracked it to when and why!  You must understand it first, not to conquer it, but to learn to live with it! To lay blame and feel sorry for yourself, becomes an excuse if allowed. Easily done and becomes acceptable, but only to you!

THERE IS MANY LEVELS OF SEVERITY OF BIPOLAR DISORDERS. I'VE READ SO MANY BOOKS AND ARTICLES ON THIS, THEY ALL RUN TOGETHER.

THIS IS AS GOOD A TIME, AS ANY, TO EXPLAIN MY UNDERSTANDING OF IT. THE BRAIN MAKES LESS SEROTONIN WHICH IT HAS TO HAVE.

THAT'S THE SIMPLE TAKE ON IT!   WHY???? WELL OVER THE LAST FIFTY YEARS OR SO, OUR BODIES HAVE STOPPED GETTING THE NECESSARY NUTRIENTS, FOR A HEALTHY MIND, BODY, AND SOUL!

GO FROM THERE, WHEREVER YOUR MIND WILL TAKE YOU. BY NOW ALL ADULTS HAVE SEEN COUNTLESS PROGRAMS LAYING OUT THE INFORMATION.

"DAMN!" Seems simple don't it?

"Does it?"

THERE ARE COUNTLESS DRUGS TO HEAL  (YEAH RIGHT!) ALL THE DISORDERS OF TODAY.

WELL NOW! WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN FARMERS FIELDS THAT TAKE OUT THE NUTRIENTS FROM THE SOIL?

SO OUR OWN BODY CANNOT MAKE THE SEROTONIN BECAUSE WE CANNOT GET ENOUGH NUTRIENTS TO MAKE THEM.

SOO WE BECOME DEPENDENT ON MEDICINE TO REPLENISH THEM!

WE HAVE SO MANY FUCKING DISORDERS TODAY, IT AIN'T FUCKING FUNNY!

WHO'S TO BLAME?       "FOLLOW THE MONEY!"